it has been such a long time since i last posted something here. here in kelantan, there are many opportunities to share God's love. some are resistent, some just come along. some just wanna go against us... i pray that i will use this 5 years to the fullest and make an impact on the people in this uni. living here, people really observed every step you take and every move you make. i've come to understand more about how when one of God's children goes somewhere, those around will be blessed as well. because we have God in us.

yet i struggle: medical studies are so tough that it leaves little time even to rest. how much time to invest in God's Word and His work then? how to balance between the role as a medical student and an ambassador of Christ in this campus? surely i cannot be an irresponsible doctor with insfficient knowledge, nor can i spend less time to build up my relationship with God and be a blessing to both Christians and non-Christians. i desire to see my freinds grow in Christ and come to acknowledge Him as their Lord and Saviour. am i wasting time? there are only 5 short years. Daddy, what do you want me to do for You? where and how to start? i don't want to waste time anymore. grant me a vision and a mission...

i pray that i will be faithful to His calling and not easily get discouraged. that i will persevere on no matter what... that i will be single-minded as when Christ walked this earth. i just need to know how to juggle between the two responsibilities...