my friends, i've been wanting to write to all of you... life here... i keep struggling. my elder tell me, "Rest in God." i just need to rest in Him and all will be well. and i guess this is what Sabbath is all about-- a day of rest given by Daddy for us to rest and allow Him to be the focus in our lives.
i haven't been studying much due to heavy involvement in my uni moon cake festival. i enjoyed myself much but put aside some 15 lectures. went for CF on wed night and church this whole morning. finally, out of tiredness, i was tempted to skip CF and church to study and to sleep. today is meant to be my Sabbath day, but i was tempted to study, to depend on my own understanding to pur more effort into my studies. everybody else is studying. i haven't been.
it has been difficult for me to strike a balance between studies and God. there's CF, church, then there're activities and sports and spending time with people. i seek to be a blessing to others here. i want to give people what Daddy has given me-- the love, comfort, family, wealth... but in all these, time is needed. do i serve in CF or church or lead bible study or spend time with people to tell them about God's love or sit in my room and study God's Word or join activities to represent God's people?
my friends, i long so much to share God's love. i want people to know that there's a God who loves them. even some Christian don't know that... but there's too much to do. people say, "set priorities." but i don't even know what my priorities are. i need Daddy to speak to me. what does He want me to do for Him?
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Dear Ming,
It might be necessary for you to repent of the idea that you are meant to do everything. Lay aside some activities and trust that God will send the right people to take those activities up.You don't need to do it all! That might be what you need to do to rest in God.
On a practical note, if you can't prioritise as yet, at least choose the activities you will say "no" to. It's not a sin to say you can't lead Bible study or do some church thing. One or two areas of service is more than enough.
I got this message from a mentor I've just met. I told her about certain struggles in my life and she said I should consider repenting of perfectionism, of not trusting others to do the job. It was quite a schock but I realise she is right. Just passing it on.
Take care and may God be with you in these tough years ahead.
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