Short-changing God

my friends, i've been wanting to write to all of you... life here... i keep struggling. my elder tell me, "Rest in God." i just need to rest in Him and all will be well. and i guess this is what Sabbath is all about-- a day of rest given by Daddy for us to rest and allow Him to be the focus in our lives.

i haven't been studying much due to heavy involvement in my uni moon cake festival. i enjoyed myself much but put aside some 15 lectures. went for CF on wed night and church this whole morning. finally, out of tiredness, i was tempted to skip CF and church to study and to sleep. today is meant to be my Sabbath day, but i was tempted to study, to depend on my own understanding to pur more effort into my studies. everybody else is studying. i haven't been.

it has been difficult for me to strike a balance between studies and God. there's CF, church, then there're activities and sports and spending time with people. i seek to be a blessing to others here. i want to give people what Daddy has given me-- the love, comfort, family, wealth... but in all these, time is needed. do i serve in CF or church or lead bible study or spend time with people to tell them about God's love or sit in my room and study God's Word or join activities to represent God's people?

my friends, i long so much to share God's love. i want people to know that there's a God who loves them. even some Christian don't know that... but there's too much to do. people say, "set priorities." but i don't even know what my priorities are. i need Daddy to speak to me. what does He want me to do for Him?

Musings: a witness to pain

Do you have the courage to admit that you feel life is meaningless and empty? Do you have the humility to admit it to someone who you know might just give you the stock answer about God? Or when the person facing meaninglessness is your friend, do you have the courage to maintain a presence with them? Not to speak of the God of all comfort, but just to be? To be a comfort, to be a person who acknowledges pain, even if you don't feel if yourself--to be a witness to it because in doing that I suppose you bear witness to your friend's life? Like Victor Klemperer who wrote about the Nazi years in his diaries, a collection now called "I Will Bear Witness." That's witnessing. It's not just talking about Jesus. It's about being a witness to the pain.

note: Musings presents alternative views of the alternative life. Not everything should be taken literally, e.g I obviously don't mean that we don't talk about God at all when witnessing.

Where I'm at with Barney

Luke 10:41-42(a) (New International Version)

41"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, 42but only one thing is needed.